I want to run away. Far away.
Lately I've been feeling so different... old songs seem to have new meanings. I don't look at anything with the same light anymore. I feel like my world has just sort of shifted, and it doesn't feel right anymore.
I know now that someday, I'm going to leave my hometown. I've known that for a long time, but it's never seemed so real. Where 'my room at home' doesn't seem real anymore, just more of an entity.
Soon enough, this room will be a hollow shell. I'll look at it and remember what it used to look like, but it won't be the same. It will be like seeing someone's bedroom on TV - you know what it would look like to sleep there, but you don't know the feeling of it.
This place will become a past tense, something that once existed but has since dissolved. I'm having a hard time figuring out if anyone around me is noticing my change, how stir-crazy I seem to have become. There's a disconnect that was never there before.
I'm not sure if this is a good or bad thing.
All i know is that there are so many places I want to see. So many places I've never been. All i want is to be out of here, and far away. On the other side of the Mississippi. Maybe Austin, TX. Somewhere in California. Or Seattle. I don't know where.
Anywhere but here, my roots have never felt so shallow in the ground.
